What Do You Want to Do?

Well, still pondering what to do with myself this year! I feel a growing disinterest to continue doing the work I have been doing for the last 10 or 12 years...which leaves the whole world open...which feels daunting and mystifying.

OK, before I boor you with any more complaints about the freedom to choose your life's path...I will challenge myself to have the guts to articulate for both you, the reader, and myself what it is I most long to do at this time...and perhaps this clarification will help to set my sail.

So, here we are. Cara, what do you most want to do in the world?
Me: I want to dance. I want to dance every day and for several hours a day. I want my body to be active and expressive. I want to be around others who are passionate about dancing and who are living balanced, wholesome lives as artists. And I want to see what my body is capable of if I dedicate it wholeheartedly to dance.

I want to travel. I want to see dance in a variety of settings, grounded in its origins. I want to study and discover people's relationship with dance...particularly women.

I want to learn more about women's history and triumphs. I want to gain new strategies for empowering both genders to relate in a healthier way.

I want to cook and eat good food!

I want to adventure, to explore and spend time in beautiful places with sincere people.

I want to study and learn experientially and get accredited as I go. I want recognition for all that I am learning and doing so that I can go on to make a noticeable difference in the world.
(this last part is hard for me to write...my modest self says it shouldn't matter whether I get recognition or not, I should only do what I feel called to do...but there I go, "should-ing" all over myself!)

I want to see the possibilities of integrating dance with other art forms and topics as a way to express wisdom and inspire others to be more connected in their own lives. I want to perform in a way that collaborates with others and uplifts viewers.

There, I've done it. I've told the embarrassing truth. On the web!
Ugh, that was hard!