I am still getting used to the idea that I have a blog. Just for me. About me. It's strange really. Nothing to promote, no one else to encourage or highlight. Just my thoughts and ramblings. Whatever I want it to be.
As before mentioned, this is a new concept for me: to focus on myself, my own development and potential, instead of others'. It's really easy, I've noticed, to keep yourself incredibly distracted from the possibility of your own unfolding by staying focused on other people's problems and obstacles. Then you can conveniently take on their suffering for them and avoid paying any attention to who you might be if you just focused on your own place and point in time. In other words, coming from someone who was taught at a very early age to always put others before herself...I am beginning to think there is something to be said for minding your own damn business!
Yes, I am sad to report that I have spent a great deal of time worrying over other people's garbage. Even at times, to the point of losing track of myself entirely and obsessing over someone else's pain, history, prospects and possibilities. I am not proud of this, but how was I to know? Luckily, it is beginning to dawn on me that this is a big waste of energy all around and that meanwhile my own potential gets squandered. So, I am learning to let go and grow!
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